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it’s weird that you can

grab these tools

in any hardware

store

whenever you want

hose and a

duct tape

and sleeping pills

from the drug store

It’s all available

these days

and so it should be

Society shouldn’t try so

hard to keep all of its

members alive

she could preach for hours

on the subject

and would do such a good

job about it

that even you’d start

believing

On that night when she

confessed

her madness to me

I told her, “You can have

fun with your insanity. Chance

the world even.

Hadn’t all the people who

changed the world been

insane?

Don’t be too quick to

throw it away or seek to ‘heal’ it.

There is another way out.

And it’s through.”

She said she knew I’d say

that. Because her insanity

was the ability to

see into the future

She then left

because she knew I would

not lend her

my car to

suicide in it by connecting

the hose to the exhaust pipe

“You can’t drive a car,” I

said. “Ain’t got

no license.”

and she said, “I don’t wanna

drive it. Just

do the thing with the

hose.”

“Yeah, but to do that

you’d have to take the car

away somewhere. Can’t do it

anywhere here in the city, you

know?”

“How about you drive us

somewhere–?”

“And then what? Come back

with your body on

the passenger’s seat?”

She didn’t say much after

that

She could see the

future in 144 branches,

as she put it.

144 possibilities for

it to unfold in every next

144 seconds.

Meanwhile I was

so short sighted that I

couldn’t even see

what she really wanted when

she suggested that I drive us

both somewhere

She wanted me to go

with her

all the way

to the other side

I’m not sure I would’ve

said no

back then

It would’ve been part of

my insanity

But, what do you know,

even that changes

If you stick around for long

enough you

discover that it can

be toyed with – the insanity

The form it has today

is the form that

allows me to write about her

all those years later

She was mad enough to

see the future

I was mad enough

to see her